i don't know why i get like this sometimes.
also: i was drinking a lot and not getting drunk
uh oh
i just felt so lonely among all these people (20+)
and i was thinking i was faking it ok,
and talking to people and being witty and engaged
but my coworkers kept telling me
"you're very pretty girl, you shouldn't have hard time be sad in korea"
which really took me aback because
1. i don't think of myself as a pretty girl entitled to happiness for being so gosh darn pretty
2. i didn't know i could look sad when i was working on looking happy
3. i don't think being beautiful makes you happy, not that i'm saying i AM or anything!
i just feel so disconnected from everything. i don't belong in the foreigner WOAHHH!!!! culture and i don't belong in the korean (korean) culture. i'm having a lot of seventh grade moments here.
here's a very rough version of my dumb subway man song (remember my seoul missed connection!!?!?) that i recorded on my mac and during which i make stupid faces.
2 comments:
I love the subway man song. There will be many more subway men in your life. Subway men are bittersweet, yet everyone needs them.
Your haircut looks amazing! And that song is awesome too, missed connections sure can create something nice!
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